Teacher, Teacher, Teacher

It is true! I am going to officially be a teacher!

I've been scrounging the mailbox for the last week because I knew that the letter of acceptance or rejection was coming from UCFV. Two times I opened the mailbox and there is the logo, in the top left. dun dun dun. BUT the name was Katrina Janzen! Agh. Now for the first time in forever she starts receiving letter after letter from UCFV because they messed up her paychecks. So I'm virtually having a heart attack every time I see the logo, and..........its not for me.

Then just this morning when I came back from class I checked the mail and it wasn't there yet, I was too early. Fine fine. Back upstairs Kat proceeds to tell me how one of her classmates got a letter yesterday. A rejection. So now I'm really nervous because I think maybe mine has been lost, or I have been rejected.

I timidly go back down to check the mail again around 10:48. :)
(I wasn't paying attention to the time at all) Its there. There's the logo. There's my name.

The letter had slid up a little bit so I could partially see the curves of the first words of the first sentence in the clear address window. It looked to me like the top of 'Congratulations.'

It was! I got in! I was unfeeling for the first half hour...I've been waiting for 6 years to hear that I would get into a teacher training program......it was a bit surreal.....but now my heart is racing and I've already registered for the courses and reserved my seat and called the family.

I had been resigned to not getting in, thinking that maybe God was going to really really really stretch me, and maybe I wouldn't get into any of the 3 programs I applied for, and that my life was supposed to head in a completely different direction, or maybe I just wouldn't get into the program that I really wanted. But He gave it to me. I got my UCFV program. I get to start in July. I get to be a teacher!!!!! I understand that God wants to give us the desires of our hearts, but sometimes its hard to know which ones. Do you know what I mean? I think that sometimes my desires may seem to me to be Godly motivated and within His plan for me, but then sometimes He completely surprises me and takes me somewhere else and changes those desires. I have been wanting to be a teacher for so long that I sometimes had time to question it and sometimes wondered if I was morphing it into something unrealistic and unattainable. Perhaps it wasn't the direction that God wanted me to be heading in. Getting into the program was the hurdle I needed to overcome to know that what I was doing was ok. Getting into these programs is not as simple as it may seem, it would have been easy to be rejected.

But I wasn't! God is giving me this desire of my heart.