Worth

How have I messed this up so badly?
How have I skewed and mis-shaped?
Why do I give others power over me?
How do I even begin to take it back?
How did I join everybody else again
and become what I'm fighting against?
How did the scale in my mind slowly twist and corrupt?
Why does this happen again and again?
Why must I be reminded again and again!!
I know where my worth should lie,
I know whose opinion should be the only one that matters.
How have I messed this up so badly?